Well it is the beginning of 2026 and I did nothing with this website/blog…BUT I intended to. That seems to be my theme for 2025…but I intended to.
I began 2025 with a bang and fizzled out quickly. I had plans of this and plans of that. Started going to an herbal school/course. Got the seeds started for the garden. Started a bunch of seedlings to sell at a Spring Bazaar. Started cleaning out the storage in the basement. Started this and started that. But it all seems to fall short of completion.
I began to focus on all the things I did not complete this year in about August and September, when I really noticed the sad state of the garden. That along with the piles of paperwork, the undone crafts meant for gifts, and the laundry, dishes and other everyday chores began a spiral effect. I spiraled until I thought…”I guess I have dementia and I will just live with it.”
Now hold on there Amanda, you do not have dementia. I bit of brain fog, yes. Some hot flashes, yes. Some normal forgetfulness, yes. Dementia, no. Menopause, YES. Well actually it is defined as perimenopause, until you have not had a period for one year. SIGH…I am not losing my mind, only my estrogen.
I can work with this. I began my research. Unfortunately, the only thing I can recall of my two-week deep dive is that in the process of menopause, your grey matter dies, and you need to give your brain dark chocolate to help it reroute your synapses.
I guess it was just before Christmas I began to feel better. I cannot put a finger on anyone thing that helped. The herbal remedies, the prayers, being intentional, the help of my family and friends, the Christmas spirit, or the trip home to see my mom and sister at Thanksgiving, listening to the needs of my body…maybe all of them.
Whatever 2025 was I am glad it is over. Even though there were many unaccomplished things this year, I keep coming back to “it is the thought that counts.” So, if that is the case…2025 rocked. I had so many thoughts about EVERYTHING. Bring on 2026…